Sunday, November 30, 2003
okay, lets say i feel like blogging. but ive got absolutely nothing to blog about. i lead such a boring life, in a boring neighbourhood, in a boring home. right now, i feel dead. like i dont exist. heh. honestly, i think this world would be EXACTLY the same if i never existed. if not, better.
Friday, November 28, 2003
right. so lets say my cold got worse. im sneezing everywhere, sniffing relentlessly. heesh. and ive to wake up at 9 tmr morning. gotta do dad's hw. the usual, a maths. and i was dying doing the work. heh. stoopid nose was killing me. gotta try and do as much of his hw i can, then gotta leave the house at 1130 for trng. so, yay. lets hope i freeze in the alley or smth. or suddenly faint. and die. hahaha. then all the misery ive caused in this world would vanish. and all the pple in the world would have 1 less person to hate. its a winwin situation. =D. lol, i sound so sadistic. but, o well.
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
mhm. im down with a cold.
Saturday, November 22, 2003
10th grade
okay. so today i woke up at 11. and chum msged me whether id be joining him and yousian for the movie. after figuring out that only the three of us were going, i figured it was gna be kinda boring. so we called it off.
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
goonight.
Monday, November 17, 2003
A hundred days have made me older
lets say i feel like blogging. but ive got nothing to say.. ah. what the heck. i wish my life would be more exciting. btw, have i told yall that my skin's peeling. i is looks like a mutating freak. yucks. i should be sleeping. hhaha. o ya. rents are going to bintan for three days. o boy. i can dont sleep atall. i can sneak out of the house and do ANYTHING i want. haha. im so crazy. but i have to be back by dawn though. cuz auntie, uncle, and cousins will be home. i live with them. juz to tell yall. cuz the house is beeg and so we share the house. =). cool right. o well. its one in the morning. and ive got nth to do. how fun. no wait..
Sunday, November 16, 2003
okay.. so i slept late today. arnd 4am? went to bed only at 2. ya.. so i was thinking of her. haha. anw, woke up really late. at 1pm. ya. so after that, ate lunch, and went to bukit merah library. nth unusual or wtvr happened. so i wont talk abt the library. i mean, wth. its juz a place with lotsalotsa books right.
Saturday, November 15, 2003
oh boy oh boy oh boy oh boy oh boy oh boy. im going to 303. and i thought i was going 306. oh boy oh boy. im so friggin happie.
Friday, November 14, 2003
woke up at 10 today. had to go for trng. ya. o well. timing today was totally screwed.
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
right. so i woke up at 930 this morning. early cuz i havent been waking up that early. late cuz i usually get up at 8 plus. stoopid camp ruined everything. o well. so i woke up at 930. so i got ready, cuz i was going out. going to jurong entertainment centre to skate. ya. then i gave clarice a wake up call at 945. and she still wanted to sleep. i gave her a wake up call and she was still late. everyone had to wait for her. anyways, everyone was there at arnd 11 plus. but we rotten by the ring for pretty long. maybe forty five mins? cuz all the girls were talking. blehh. o well. btw, i forgot to mention. i went out with hy, donovan and some crescentians. frm s3. ya. jamie, germaine and jan went to town. and i was like wtF? they were THERE. why not juz SKATE FOR A WHILE. god. i find it soo soo weird. ya, so
Monday, November 10, 2003
ah phuck. i'm too tired to recall anything that happened during the camp. all i know is that i'm burned and i got two stoopid ulcers. ugh. o well, i think i'm falling ill, if not, i'm going to. haha. i think i better go rest, not feeling so good. blehh.
Thursday, November 06, 2003
right, so i've got ace camp tmr. so i wont be online till monday. juz telling yall so you wont worry where i've gone. =p. i think i should go bed. gotta wake up at sixthirty tmr. yup. so, goonight.
Wednesday, November 05, 2003
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
okay, so its past 2 in the morning. lets say i cant sleep. yah. so i'm helping weiyang now with his blog. so, uhm. gonna try to sleep now again.
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
i cant remember what happened today. i juz remember feeling a lil sick. i think i puked. or did i not. heck.
Monday, November 03, 2003
slept at 1 today. amazingly early. o well. woke up late though, 10:30. got dressed and went to town. discussing abt the class tee and stuff. didnt really do much. hahaha. ate lunch at bk, then went to catch a movie. intolerable cruelty. is the spelling right? heck. ya, pretty funny la. and the theatre was friggin cold. my fingers and all were numb like phuck. i couldnt feel a thing. haha. after that, stone arnd. then we decided to go for a walk. to far east. i thought it was stupid, juz walking like that. so i decided to go home. went to do tootion hw, and took a nap after that. woke up, had dinner, and blogged.
Sunday, November 02, 2003
okay, so i shall start my first post.
dont come to me and say all that crap abt im a good friend and wtvr if you dont mean it. cuz most of the time, pple juz say it to cheer that person up. and yknow what? right now, i feel like shit. maybe today isnt my day.
phuck, wheres my blade..
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so, i was horribly woken up this morning by the stoopid crane..? or that funny machine that scoops the debris and chucks it somewhere. you know which machine im referring to. ya. so my neighbour's house is being renovated. and they start work at friggin 845. how phucked is that. anyway, knowing that it would be USELESS trying to sleep, i dragged myself outta bed. and started my sneezing spree again. ugh. got up, did dad's h/w. which was due four days ago. hes getting pissed with me. and im disgusted with myself. whyd i take FOUR days to do 30 pathetic sums. im hopeless. and, as usual, did last min chi tootion hw. what a lovely morning, huh.
didnt eat breakfast, and so i took a light lunch. i sound nuts. heck. went to use the comp after lunch. played lf2. =D. i suck though. i cant even complete stage 1 (crazy mode). owells, i got so fed up, i started cussing at the comp everytime a stoopid bugger punched me. haha. then, it was tootion time. and i almost fell asleep again. hah. BUT... the teacher didnt notice. she was sleeping as well. cuz she asked me to read this chi article frm the papers, and i was like, looking at her, and then reading the same paragraph over and over and over again (it was the last para). then after the fifth one, i paused. then she opened her eyes, and like, o, okay. so, what is the story abt? i was like. wtf. DIDNT YOU READ WHAT I JUZ READ. lol. but o well, shes a nice teacher.
after tootion, went warcrafting. boy, im gettin rusty. i cant remember my build sequence. haha. and i was supposed to be doing my maths. and can you believe it. i forgot all abt it. until after dinner. heh. i had, 1 hour to do 15 sums? lol. so dad got kinda angry. mhm..
and now, ive finished some maths. still left alot. gna finish as much as possible tmr morning. and im supposed to be sleeping. but heck. lets hope something bad happens at trng tmr. in my weakened state, i hope the aircon at the alley'll do smth. relax, ill watch over you guys when im a ghost. till then, byee.
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As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broken her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had written in her high school years. This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!
I wish I did too... I thought to myself, and I cried.
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then after that, went to take a shower. rotted infrontof the comp screen after that. didnt have anythin to do.
lunch today was nasi lemak, which i dont really like. heh. more cuz of the kuning. i got a sorta phobia for that fish. haha. cuz twice i had a bone stuck in my throat. wasnt juz stuck, it was like, impaled inside. abt ¾ of it was in. yeh. so i dont like that fish. finished lunch in abt half an hour.
and after lunch, went back to the comp to rot. after getting sick of rotting arnd, i decided to practise guitar. heh. played for, abt an hour? and the skin of my fingertips split again. haha. managed to play nobodysfool quite well. =D. thx to riana who taught me how to read tabs. haha. moved on to thingsillneversay after that. that whole song is chords, no tabs. found it easier. and ive been practising that song since oct. ya.
after that, went to play the sims. i got all the expansions. =D. makin magic is cool. lol. i morphed some neighbour into a toad. pity the spell wears off after some time.. was playin arnd with the spells, and i enchanted a gnome. so cute. haha. helps to water the plants. spells wears off after two days. so after it wore off, i casted it again. and guess what. the spell backfired. lol. the gnome was in flames. hahaha. so funny can. one tiny gnome, and the flames were like, so high. did a lotta other stuff, but its gna be boring for you to listen to what i did, so ill move on.
and after i was finished with the sims, i realised it was dinner. lol. i spent an entire afternoon on that. o wells. dinner was horrible today. heh. dont ask why. all i can say was that everything tasted gross. then watched starsearch! i luv the young dancer cat. da crew so kewl. reminds me of knucklehead zoo. haha. but my favourite breakdancer's jon cruz. wah lau. his moves totally rock can. pity i cant break dance. heh. id die imagining myself breakdance. anw, after watching that category, decided to go upstairs liao.
the usual, rotted in front of the screen. then went to play guit again. lol. played the same two songs again. got more familiar with the songs. and i juz realised that nobodysfool only needs four chords. haha. stopped abt half an hour later, cuz i couldnt take the pain anymore. then i played tactical ops. smth like cs la. and i totally suck. lol. cant even shoot someone even though hes right infrontof my face. got sick of it, cuz i wasnt even having fun.
okay, this is today's highlight. had a chat with elizabeth. haha. got dissed at, which is totally so kewl. havent been cussed at in a looong time. memories.. o well. but it was totally kewl. made a new friend today. hahaa. knew she was playin arnd. so i played along. haha. pretending and acting gay and stuff. and changing my font to pink. lol. and not forgetting acting stoopid. i guess she got sick that she wasnt demoralising me, so she stopped. what a loser. heh. dont even know how to cuss properly. demoralise me my ass. and we were using paint to diss each other. haha. how fun. at least all this shit sorta livened up my day.
so now, im bloggin, since theres nth to do. dont feel like sleepin. fer god's sake, im nocturnal, juz that i dont sleep in the day. heh. itsa cold night tonite. rainin and stuff.
heck. nth to talk abt already. thats all for today, i guess. and my fingertips still hurt frm the guitar while i blog. hahaha
bye.
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i know im being lame. cuz im bored and ive nothing to do. youve no right to question me, okay.
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Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me.
The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me.
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me...
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its a damn cold night,
and i'm trying to figure out this life.
day by day, time flies by so fast,
i reminisce the past.
we used to be so much closer,
so much happier.
here i hope to revive those moments,
by writing to you this poem.
the happiness you bring to me,
is anything but ordinary.
i'm finding that you and you alone can break my fall,
and day by day, i miss you even more.
im trying to be perfect,
cuz i know ur worth it.
my love for you, always forever,
it wont stop, never ever.
without you, everything's in shades of grey,
its as if my world is about to fray.
i dream about you every minute of every hour of everyday,
i love you more than words can say.
you cant tell me, it's not worth fighting for,
you cant tell me, youre not worth dying for.
forgive me cuz i never learnt how to let go,
i need you darling, i love you so.
no one can make me feel this way,
so please dont ever go away..
phuck. its crap. dont read that. its not meant for you. haha.
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yeh, so after that, went to ikea for a bite. wheeee, the chicken wings rockkk. tender and juicy. =D. haha, then i had $3 bucks of drinks free. yknow, ur supposed to pay 1 buck for a drink right. and ur not supposed to refill ur glass. but heck. hahaha. i took the plastic cup and had 2 refills. hahah. im so evil.
then when i reached home, juz finished off dad's tootion hw. maths. ya. cumulative frequency. hm.. then had dinner. i was kinda full frm the foood, so i couldnt really eat dinner. haha. anyway, after dinner, here i am blogging. ya. so there.
byee.
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o well. after checking out my class, got a lift frm kenneth to clementi. then i went to holland v. =D. but lets say i juz didnt have the guts. so.. o well. another day then. whole familee's home on saturday anyway. i think i'll do it on a weekday. hahaha.
i'll probably blog again later. so, cya.
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i wanted to go holland v to buy smth for her, but tootion later on screwed it all. maybe tmr. so, i juz didnt have time. trng finished at 1, travelled home. reached home at 2 plus. had lunch, and then tootion. lol, i was falling asleep during tootion, and the teacher was getting pissed at me. then after tootion, i get so hyped. wtf is wrong with me. lol. and uhm, as usual, i cant remember anything. o ya, my ulcers are getting better. they dont hurt when i eat. =D.
and posting's TMR. omfg. o god, please lemme in 305. dont let it be a "06" 0505050505. come on! heck, let me go on worrying. you can leave now. o ya, tag that tagboard before you leave. thx.
till i know my class, bye. wish me luck and let it be 305
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hy he was being his usual self. flirting. ah heck. wtvr. dont wanna mention anything.
okay, then everyone wanted to go town, but i figured i wasnt feeling so good after the ice skating and all, cuz my fingers were cold, they were numb. ya. and my nose wasnt feeling too good either. so i went home. i didnt eat lunch, unless you call eating a pack of m&ms lunch. and it hurt with every bite. i hate ulcers. but i miss choc. hahaha. didnt eat any choc during the camp. ya, so i ate heck a lotta choc. and i think i gotta sore throat coming along; my throat hurts when i swallow, ya. heck. right, where was i. uhm.. ya. i didnt eat lunch. was computing at home, or rather, staring at the screen. haha. and i cant remember what happened after that. i juz remember eating dinner. which made my ulcers hurt again. heh. when the phuck will they disappear. irritating thingies. ya. so now im blogging, after dinner. posting's in three days. i wonder which lousy class i'll get into. o well, the time will come. what is deemed to be, shall arrive inevitably.
bye.
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bye.
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ciao~
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Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
chorus
As we go on, we remember
All the times we, had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever
So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
chorus
As we go on, we remember
All the times we, had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever
La, la, la, la…
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la…
We will still be friends forever
chorus (x3)
As we go on, we remember
All the times we, had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever...
i love 204, 2003. luvyall. *hugs*
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ciao.
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heesh, i juz realised my life is absolutely boring.
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well, today started early. slept at 4am and woke up at 6am. yup. then i went for my jog and i realised how unfit i am. haha. ya, then i realised i was starving after my run. forgot to eat breakfast. yup, so i went to eat breakfast. then did my maths tootion h/w. sec4 e maths. heh. coordinate geometry. find length and area of some of the graphs. pretty cool. heck, then what did i do. hmm... i think i went online. or smth like that. ya, was designing this blog. i started making it ystr, and its done today. not bad, huh? so stupid, then i accidentally deleted half of the html code and clicked save. LOL. lucky i had a backup in notepad. hahah. after that, went warcrafting for a while. i juz realised i'm getting sick of warcraft. ya. then i went for lunch, and had maths tootion after that. did probability. pretty confusing. heh. then i took my nap. woke up after 3 hours and then i blogged. supposed to go out with rents for dinner outside. but i think im too tired. hah. so i told them to da bao smth home for me. yup. thats all for now i guess. o ya, i'm hungry and sleepy.
ciao.
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